change

My first visit to Brown left me with mixed emotions, and I have spent the last few days thinking and writing and talking incessantly in a vain attempt to sort out all my thoughts. I worry that I might lose myself in this new, strange place with these new, very different people. I have never done well with change, and I do not like the unfamiliar. I like to feel informed and important. It calms me. Still, a cross-country move could be a great opportunity for growth. This winter brought great sadness into my life, and with sadness comes self-reflection and self-evaluation, and I feel that over the past few months I have strengthened my sense of self and established some idea of what I want from life. Perhaps I am ready for that big, terrifying change.